6ish weeks

We are going.

We are going to China.

We are going to China to bring home the sweetest girl.

We are going to China to finally be united forever with Emma Kate!

And we're going in about 6ish or so weeks. At least that is what the current time frame is from our agency.


I keep reminding myself how FAST that time will go.  Two weeks to Article 5.  Two weeks to Travel Approval.  Two weeks to travel.  2 + 2 + 2 = 6.

All that makes me alternately giddy and panicked.  I'm living in that tension of emotions that sound at odds with one another, but really are simply two feelings co-existing.  Maybe not nicely, but they are together.

Like jubilation and stark fear.  Or joy and total worry.  I know the months to come will hold some of both.  And not just for us.  It is Emma Kate who has the most change.  The biggest shifts.  The most to gain and the most to lose.  And I think about how we have a call to walk this well for her.  For her sake. And because Jesus knows we can and asks us to.

I think about the moment we finally meet and already feel my heart there leaping for joy and filled with hope and love.  I can only imagine for her what it will be, to say goodbye to all that she has ever known. How easy it is to forget that she hasn't been waiting for us all these months that we have been yearning for and dreaming of her.

Every night we pray for the Lord to connect our hearts even now, from afar.  We ask the One who can to prepare the way.  And no matter what it looks like when we get there, I make myself remember that He is ahead of us.  He is at work.  And He is MORE than able.

Every morning I pray for Emma Kate's slumber, and ask the Lord to stand watch and minister to her as she rests.  One day soon she will awaken with us and sleep with us; with Him there for it all.

Today is one day closer to that day.

Sixish weeks.
So short.
And yet so long.