It is a relief, and a sweet respite.
My chest isn't so tight that I can't breathe and feel that each breath might possibly send a fresh release of adrenaline rushing through my bloodstream.
The Lord is delighting me in this waiting time, and has been so gracious to us to let us have a few weeks to prepare. I know deep inside that this is a sabbath rest for us; for me especially. We have built up new muscles of strength and endurance in this past year. Muscles that are not physical, but are spiritual and emotional in nature. God has faithfully grown us as we've persevered, walked in faith and cleaved to Him.
"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."
- Romans 8:28
He won't waste a drop of this past year. It is all very important to Him. And it matters that we persevere.
"Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial"
- James 1:12
We have experienced the blessing of God's faithful presence with us and for us. Never for a moment have we been alone. Not once has He been far off, busy, or absent. We truly call ourselves blessed. Blessed by God. Blessed because we are God's.
Now we are here. On the brink of travel. And here with me fully at home. Here with Luke's seizures seemingly discerned.
Here with the Lord fully in control of all the events of our lives. Just as He has always been.
I am delighting in booking our travel, anticipating the journey, planning the packing and organizing the schedules. It truly is a joy.
One I am able to savor because there is room. There is space to do it in. I marvel at God's perfect timing. His perfect timing for each event and category in our lives. And I am so incredibly grateful for His gift of these weeks before we meet our sweetest Emma Kate.
Room to breathe. It is a good thing.
God has spoken sweet words to me, over and over, in the course of the past week. His kiss, His words to treasure. They have come not just from time in His Word, but from the lips of other people who had no idea He had already spoken them to me. What sweet confirmation.
"I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the LORD
in the land of the living." - Psalm 27:13
We see God's goodness. We have seen God's goodness.
And we will see it again.
" I will sing of the LORD's great love forever"
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